| It really was about time I updated this profile... what I had written when I first came here still stands but much has changed, unsurprisingly.
It's been a little over two years since J collared me and I've undoubtedly learned a great deal since then, dispelled a few personal myths and preconceptions, shed some baggage and made a bit of progress, but health problems have slowed some areas up and there is definitely still much to do and more to learn.
J has offered me so much. He has sheltered me, given me space and time to learn anew where I needed to and shown me entirely new paths to growth as well. I am on my way but I'm still learning, and occasionally still fighting, still reverting to old patterns and bad habits, letting old hurts get in the way so I'm a long long way from perfect or what he truly deserves.
I know even when I'm this 'perfect being' as it seems to me today, there always will be more to learn and further to travel... it's a journey not a destination as such so we will never arrive, never stop, never settle... and that suits me just fine... wherever he leads, I follow.
In the meantime, I hope to go on meeting others I can share and learn with here. TSR / SD has been a wonderful place for me and I passionately want to hang on to it, for myself and for others who come after me. Those who know me know I am protective of the site... and that I'm not about to apologise for it either! 
I will offer advice and help as I can, openly and honestly... but always as a fellow traveller. So please don't be misled... just because I have been here a while, voice strong opinions or passionate views in some areas, will try my hand at a little troll-slaying now and then, or can offer a bit of reasonably intelligent advice on occasion... don't look to me for eternal truths or definitive answers! I am still learning and struggling too and will be seeking as much help and enlightenment as I give, I assure you.
I enjoy the discussion and debate, I like to have a bit of fun and see some personality in posts but I like subjects I can get my teeth into too. A bit of knock-about in exchanges is fine with me but I don't indulge in ad hominem attacks and if you attack the poster and won't or can't debate the point I will lose patience and interest fast.
I don't expect to be treated any differently because I'm a sub, so please be frank and direct with me too in return, but also treat me as an equal here please... I really do not take kindly (and neither does J) to those who would take liberties or make assumptions. I will be doing the same for you... my respect and admiration for those who earn it will be given irrespective of position within their dynamics.
Look forward to meeting you! 
anjuli
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*** Noli me tangere, for Caesar's I am. ***
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Favourite quotes:
Anais Nin -
“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”
Anais Nin -
“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”
Anais Nin -
"Man can never know the kind of loneliness a woman knows. Man lies in a woman's womb only to gather strength, he nourishes himself from this fusion, and then he rises and goes into the world, into his work, into battle, into art. He is not lonely. He is busy. The memory of the swim in amniotic fluid gives him energy, completion. The woman may be busy too, but she feels empty. Sensuality for her is not only a wave of pleasure in which she has bathed, and a charge of electric joy at contact with another. When man lies in her womb, she is fulfilled, each act of love a a taking of man within her, an act of birth and rebirth, of child-bearing and man-bearing. Man lies in her womb and is reborn each time anew with a desire to act, to BE. But for woman, the climax is not in the birth, but in the moment the man rests inside of her."
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