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	SD! : Web boards : IE Theory : "Being fully open in Enslavement" 1 2 3 4 Being fully open in Enslavement (39) Fri 28 Mar 08, 3:34 AM phantasm 17 mths I don't know if anyone else may find themselves in this situation. My owner, as owners do, is still learning about me, and now has started onto a process of knowing what I am thinking about at any given time. Of course, the mind being highly complex, this would normally be a long period of discovery and learning. Not necessarily in my case. After giving service in bed, as I asked if he would like to have his morning blow job, and proceeded to climb under the duvet to make a tee pee tent and commence my duty (the tee pee was my idea), on finishing and laying beside him, he then asked what I was thinking about. "The little people" I said "The little people" he remarked, "You were thinking of little people" I said, "I was thinking of the little people inside all the organs working hard to keep them going." "OK, little people, and what are they doing exactly?" he asked quite intrigued. "Making things work" I replied. Sir giggled and asked, "So how many are there?" "About 10 per organ" I answered. "And what do they look like, sasha?" "Tetley tea people" I informed him. "And working really hard too" There was silence for a while, and ten minutes later, still lying in bed, he asked me again "What are you thinking about now, then?" "Roof tiles" I replied. So it kind of went on like that, and so my owner has now learned that I totally think of complete and utter rubbish at any given time or moment. Later in the evening, now separated until my next visit, as we had to part company earlier than planned, I realised something and began to suffer a severe panic attack. On reflecting over my time with him I suddenly thought, Oh My God! He thinks I think I have little people living inside of me. I did try to correct this little insight, I'm still not sure he believes me, but he knows I would never lie to him. The thing is, I always wanted to have Sir perceive me as an intellectual woman, someone of the mind who holds a position of care within a professional career, which he does, and someone of a certain calibre, let's say. Well that idea is completely shot, he is now aware of the real me. Although I think he was always aware of that, but one can never tell, because he's very silent at times. So my point I guess, it's not always the dark side of our nature one may relinquish the truth about, but often enough (I guess) the innocent or lighter side which can enable one's Master to know his slave better. Just something which seemed important to me, nothing more. It is actually exhilarating to think how free one feels when having to be totally open, and not being able to hide even the silly things about ourselves. Being this free, allows me to sink even deeper into feelings of devotion, love, and adoration to my owner. sasha 28 Mar 08, 1:27 PM slave_emma US(OK), 2 yrs Okay, the little people thing was rather amusing in a good way. My mind also wanders is seems in a million different directions. I think that my Master is generally interested in what is going on in my head. Often times, my random thoughts reveal my quirks, my interests, or something more that may be bothering me. Best wishes, slave emma Master Howard's little girl 28 Mar 08, 9:12 PM masterfiremaam US(AZ), 2 yrs Did anyone else think "oompaloompa"? *chuckle* Embrace your creativity. Turn it into fun, whimsical stories! Maybe you could write some children's books. Master Fire "Be excellent to each other." - Bill and Ted *air guitar* 28 Mar 08, 9:59 PM phantasm 17 mths aww Thank you both for replying. Actually, Sir has ordered me to start writing again, as for some reason I stopped writing sexy poems and stories. But Sir doesn't care 'what' I write about, he just wants me to write - not really sure why, I do kind of have lots of 'innocent' and child-like ideas and thoughts bouncing in my noggin, maybe I should try. Thank you for your suggestion. Why didn't I ever think of that? sasha 29 Mar 08, 2:27 AM masterfiremaam US(AZ), 2 yrs Well, 'cause the little people had plugged that wire in yet, of course! Master Fire "Be excellent to each other." - Bill and Ted *air guitar* 29 Mar 08, 3:00 AM Cav_MN US(MN), 14 mths sasha_811 wrote: Being fully open in Enslavement Just something which seemed important to me, nothing more. It is actually exhilarating to think how free one feels when having to be totally open, and not being able to hide even the silly things about ourselves. Being this free, allows me to sink even deeper into feelings of devotion, love, and adoration to my owner. sasha You have said it so well. Only with Master have I been able to be all of me. Master's sweet c 29 Mar 08, 3:44 AM little_linnet US, 3 yrs Little people! So cute. I think you'll find that many submissives and slaves reveal childlike inner lives. I even think this is one of the central benefits of being enslaved; we're allowed to be childlike and assume a childishly dependent role at times. I think Mr Linnet would regret it deeply in no time flat if he were to ask me what I was thinking at random times. Luckily (?) I chatter on enough that he gets the idea without having to deliberately inflict it on himself. His favorite thing to tease me about is the car trip when I was earnestly talking about some other thing, interrupted myself to say "Oooooo daffodils!" as they flashed by us on the side of the highway and then switched back to my original topic without skipping a beat. He says it's "ADD at its finest". (He even had to explain why he was laughing so hard. I really didn't understand that other people can't *do* that.) Krista Accept that you are a nutcase and proceed accordingly. 11 Apr 08, 6:14 AM KsKittyKat US, 18 mths I too think it is a sub/slave tendency to have childish thoughts/actions at times. When Master and I were first together he didn't really know this side of me, the side of me that enjoys pats on the head for doing good, and the little girl part of me that never grew up. I think that the longer we're together, the more the "real" me that I didn't ever let out... and somewhat didn't know existed appears. I really think it's pretty neat. 11 Apr 08, 11:23 AM anjuli UK, 18 mths I am absolutely convulsed with laughter at this thread. I am SO close to the OP and to Krista, it's scary! My Master is kind enough to say that I have a good mind that I know how to use, to acknowledge the intellectually curious and rigorous side of me - but he's always laughing at the amount of rubbish I can have floating through it at any point in time. One of his phrases is, 'Ahhhh... grasshopper!' For more than one reason. Both as my teacher and sometimes more obliquely as an expression of amusement at the ADD-like change of subjects - EXACTLY, a la Krista's daffodils. (Oh and apologies to anyone not old enough to get the reference but I'm sure you'll live without knowing any more about David Carradine and Master Po but yes he does the accent.) He is constantly amazed at what is whizzing around at the most idiotic times. It's positively embarrassing when he asks for what's going on in there at, say, a nice quiet moment in bed when he's just basking in the pleasure and I have to admit to all sorts of prosaic nonsense. Afterglow of multiple orgasms only just faded and I am horrified to find I'm thinking about... yeah, rooftiles or somesuch. On a more serious note. I know that this is an issue for me. All this 'noise' can interfere with living in the moment, stop me from enjoying things to the full - because I've already moved on to worry about something totally unrelated. That is one of his goals for me. To help me learn to clear my mind, to clear it for me if he has to (What am I saying? As he has to - all the time!) and help me find peace and quietness and contentment in my life. <happy sigh> Aren't they wonderful, these masters of ours? anjuli ps. When I end up telling Master about the 'little people' he'll assume I've gone off my rocker and you'll probably hear the bellows of laughter cross the pond - hold on tight over there in the region of the San Andreas fault. lol ~~~ “I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.” - Anais Nin ~~~ 11 Apr 08, 8:19 PM jjsslave US(OH), 14 mths OK, I'm going to go out on a limb here and make myself look crazy but at least I know now that I'm not the only one out there that thinks of odd things sometimes. My mind often wonders too to unanswerable questions that make people give me odd looks of I say anything. 11 Apr 08, 9:04 PM phantasm 17 mths Sir quite often says absolutely nothing while I'm talking with him, he just let's me rabbit on endlessly - listening whatever rubbish I generally think about. When on the telephone, I sometimes have to ask if he's still there? He says, "I'm just enjoying listening to you babble on" anjuli wrote: On a more serious note. I know that this is an issue for me. All this 'noise' can interfere with living in the moment, stop me from enjoying things to the full - because I've already moved on to worry about something totally unrelated. I can so relate to that! sasha Oh, update: masterfiremaam wrote: Did anyone else think "oompaloompa"? *chuckle* Embrace your creativity. Turn it into fun, whimsical stories! Maybe you could write some children's books. Master Fire Sir is still waiting for me to start! I tell him I'm still working on storylines. He likes the idea very much and I'm pretty much comitted to write now. OHMYGOSH!!! I'm gonna write a children's book Next page