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	SD! : Web boards : Discipline : "Y/your Opinions Please?" 1 2 3 Y/your Opinions Please? (27) Thu 22 May 08, 2:45 AM 953-171-915 22 mths Greetings to A/all, To get right to the point, i screwed up a few nights ago. I was irritable and cranky and spoke in a manner not becomming my Master's slave. i actually told Him, "NO". i dare say it was a rediculous moment of insanity. i had no right. Despite the circumstances that life was handing me, i had no justification to tell Him "NO"...i had no right to deny Him His simple request. i had no right to take a serious attitude. i admit all of those things with a heavy heart. Master was angered by my actions. He sent me to the corner immediately; though, i even balked at complying with that! i did end up going to the corner. i cried like a baby. Keep in mind that my Master and i are separated by many miles (521 to be exact). W/we get together about once per month. Anyhow, He said that He intends to further the punishment this coming weekend with His belt *cringes*. Here goes: Sometimes my Master forgets about punishing me for things i might have done. Sometimes i bring them to His attention...and sometimes i slip by them. i don't intend to make it sound like it is actually often that i am being punished. Most of the time my punishments are more like disciplines per say...modification of minor behaviors. There have been 2 significant physical punishments for the sake of making me pay for insubordination that i have experienced. Those two times of severe punishment were so hard to endure. One time i even felt terribly scared by it. But, regardless of how difficult they were to endure, they did offer a cleansing of the soul and a more pure understanding of what crossing the line means. He followed those punishments up with a soft talk of how i am to behave and then held me into the night. i did not look at the bruises on my ass from those two times like i do when there are bruises there from paytime. They were painful to see and painful to touch. i do know the served me well though. Because of them i know i don't want to cross the lines into those positions again. But, as i admitted at the beginning of this, i screwed up. So, does a slave offer the belt to her Master? Does she gather it in her teeth and crawl to Him and beg for forgiveness and His punishment? Or does she just wait and see if He does punish her or not? i sooooo don't want the belt!!!!! But i also don't want to continue to carry the ache in my heart that i got away with being mouthy and beligerent to my Owner. Any suggestions?? Thank Y/you all for reading and Y/your thoughts. -His pet 22 May 08, 4:03 AM Andrews_cumbucket US(ND), 13 mths Y! Long distance relationships are hard enough without adding a D/s dynamic to it. i think that it would be good for you to get the punishment because it will help to reinforce your M's Dominance over you. With such distance it can get very difficult to have that constant in your life, so perhaps the lingering soreness and marks will help to serve as that. http://kittypetskyler.wordpress.com/ http://bdsmhaven.proboards80.com/index.cgi ~~~~ Master allows me my posting privileges. He will deny and/or completely remove them as He sees fit. ~~~~ 22 May 08, 4:23 AM 953-171-915 22 mths Thank you skylerpet Don't get me wrong, i may have no choice. i mean i could drive in to His driveway and then be dragged to the barn by my hair and punished on the spot. *cringes again* But, if He does not call me to punishment, do i bring it up or beg for it? (by the way am not good at begging yet) Do i leave it alone and not say a word about it? How does one approach this? i know that all Masters and Mistresses are different, but in general what do you (and Others here) think would be the more pleasing and how does one approach it? i would like to avoid it all together, yet...i know that probably solves nothing either? Or does it? LOL so confused! Thanks again skylerpet!! -His pet 22 May 08, 7:40 AM 826-659-267 US, 14 mths His Pet, I too am like you, or have had situations like yours, where Master forgets punishments or things i have done, that should be punished. Well i at least think he forgets, maybe he doesnt and is saving them all up for one big punishment**little scream**. In your case though, since you do feel so bad about what you have done, i would just beg for the punishment and the clearing and cleansing. It might show him and yourself how deep your service to him goes. I personally dont know of many slaves that offer up the belt for punishments, so maybe this is a good step for you and your relationship. Good luck and keep us posted Slave Jessi ~~There are subs and than there are slaves and from slaves come natural-borns, which are you? 22 May 08, 8:05 AM 701-989-953 9 mths At the moment, I am free. but when I was in a relationship, there was no way I could have lived with covering up a mistake or disobedience. I always confessed, even if I had a rebellious throught. And it was not because i enjoyed the punishment, far from it, because my owner knew me well enough to know what I would really hate. so my punishments (unless in play) were never physical and usually consisted in a ban on any communication with my owner for a period of time or a ban on any kind of D/s activity 22 May 08, 8:51 AM monika_Pana_Piotra PL, 15 mths After reading what you have written it sounds clear that you feel guilty and you know that you did something wrong. i can't write what you should do because every relationship i different and every Masters sets His own rules. i am writing it basing on my own experiences. It happens sometimes that i do something wrong just impulsively without thinking. i realize it and start feeling really bad. The worst thing is to see that my Master is displeased with my behaviour and disappointed. i know that i can always beg my Master for punishment. It is very painful and hard for me to say, but i do this when i have the inner feeling that i should. The decision always belongs to my Master and i know that He always decides right. The only place where i feel secure, happy and fulfilled is on my knees in front of my Master. i am my Master's sole property, His will is my will and i desire to be His slave, His whore and His servant as long as He decides me to. Edited 22 May 08, 8:52 AM by monika_Pana_Piotra 22 May 08, 4:09 PM 953-171-915 22 mths monika_Pana_Piotra wrote: After reading what you have written it sounds clear that you feel guilty and you know that you did something wrong. i can't write what you should do because every relationship i different and every Masters sets His own rules. i am writing it basing on my own experiences. It happens sometimes that i do something wrong just impulsively without thinking. i realize it and start feeling really bad. The worst thing is to see that my Master is displeased with my behaviour and disappointed. i know that i can always beg my Master for punishment. It is very painful and hard for me to say, but i do this when i have the inner feeling that i should. The decision always belongs to my Master and i know that He always decides right. Thank You! This is very clear to me. It is hard to swallow, yet very clear. my Master has ALWAYS instilled in me that i may talk to Him about anything. i may ask Him for anything. He will always hear me out on any topic, but the final choice and say is always His. After reading your words, perhaps this is the way i should approach it that perhaps i do have a responsibility to offer myself to it and put the final choice in His hands. i do not know yet *how* to offer myself yet...will continue to think. Goodness, thinking about all of this is punishment in itself! Thank you so kindly for your thoughts. -His pet 22 May 08, 4:16 PM 953-171-915 22 mths Thank you 701-989-953. i appreciate your thoughts and words. Thankfully, my Master will not "ban" communication with me. W/we both need it too much for it to be an effective punishment. The closest to that is putting me in the corner for a period of time (5 minutes, 10 minutes, 30 minutes, etc) and not allowing me to speak, move, or look back to Him. That is about as much as He will ignore me for a punishment. It is a hard one for me to...and one that He uses a lot/when needed. my Master has several different things that He uses for punishment...in the form of taking things away from me when i have misbehaved in minor infraction. Or, if i speak any forbidden words, soap finds its way to my mouth *crinkles nose*. i guess this time though, it may warrant more...that is what He said the other night anyhow. Thanks so much!! -His pet 22 May 08, 4:28 PM 953-171-915 22 mths 826-659-267 wrote: His Pet, I too am like you, or have had situations like yours, where Master forgets punishments or things i have done, that should be punished. Well i at least think he forgets, maybe he doesnt and is saving them all up for one big punishment**little scream**. In your case though, since you do feel so bad about what you have done, i would just beg for the punishment and the clearing and cleansing. It might show him and yourself how deep your service to him goes. I personally dont know of many slaves that offer up the belt for punishments, so maybe this is a good step for you and your relationship. Good luck and keep us posted Slave Jessi Good morning Slave Jessi, Thank you for posting to me. i struggled for awhile with feeling like overlooked things were maybe things that were in all reality not important to Him...and i rebelled for awhile. i started doing more and more things to purposely see if He would punish me... ummm...i don't recommend that. i learned from that experience. Life is hectic. It is busy and hectic for He and i both along with the rest of the world *ss*. i see how things slip by. However, i am a very internal person. i keep everything...i forget nothing. LOL i probably punish myself more than He does...mentally anyhow. i just want to be perfect for Him! i want to give Him everything...and that includes righting any wrongs. i want to learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. But as i say that i welcome the relief of having something put to rest in the form of punishment, i also fear simply because i know what He is capable of. *cringes again* i don't have to have the belt to know that i do not want to take an attitude like that again and do not want to tell Him "No"...i don't need a physical punishment to know i do not want to repeat that bad behavior. But, with that being said, is further punishment necessary? Are many slaves wired in this thinking of perhaps needing punishment given by their Owner to promote some kind of release? Is that only for the slave's benefit? Or does it benefit the Owner? Does it strengthen the couple? LOL i am so long winded in my thoughts, i know. Thanks again. i will continue to find the answers and will let you know what happened...and hopefully, i am capable of being found pleasing in some way and some how. -His pet 23 May 08, 1:51 AM Andrews_cumbucket US(ND), 13 mths Y! Upon re-reading this thread, i think you should simply ask your Master what He would like you to do. It could be that He has simply deemed that the situation does not warrant a punishment. Asking Him will allow you to know that when he does not punish you, if He would like you to ask for it, beg for it, or if He has decided that you do not need the punishment. http://kittypetskyler.wordpress.com/ http://bdsmhaven.proboards80.com/index.cgi ~~~~ Master allows me my posting privileges. He will deny and/or completely remove them as He sees fit. ~~~~ 23 May 08, 11:03 AM JRCs_petk HK, 14 mths Y! Should it not be an Owner's decision to choose when/how/whether to punish? I know personally that if I requested/suggested punishment my Master would view it as topping from the bottom. Being the sadist that he is he'd deny me the attention of a punishment. That in itself would have a more profound effect on me. As a slave I've learned acceptance. Accepting the fact that what happens within our relationship is not my decision, and that pushing for something I happen to want is not a good idea. My Owner's favourite catchphrase is, "Is this about Me or you?" Edited 23 May 08, 11:09 AM by JRCs_petk Next page