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	SD! : Web boards : The Slave Register : "Upon the death of a slave" 1 2 Upon the death of a slave (18) Wed 23 Jul 08, 12:54 PM 509-345-760 CA, 3 yrs  i wish to ask, what will or should be done with a girls tsr # 509-345-760, when a girl passes on? this girl has terminal cancer and Master may not know what to do. i wish to spare Him what grief i can. thank you A/all deka of Kea_Dan, forever His 23 Jul 08, 4:44 PM anjuli UK, 16 mths  Hello deka What can one say? It's not all that much help to you but I'm sorry and feeling for both you and your Master. Your number is yours. The idea of the slr is that it is the slave's and goes with the slave throughout and I see no reason why that should not be the case for you. I know you see it as a potential source of pain for your Master but perhaps he might have a view? And you, what would you like? Perhaps you could change your profile and leave him a message there so that he knows that you were his to the end. So much depends on your beliefs. For what it's worth, my Master does not believe in an after-life whereas I am undecided but would like to think I'm his forever. I would change my profile to say just that. Include a poem for him, anything that speaks to you. There is no reason for you to feel forced to do any particular thing or to behave in any particular way. Do what feels right and what might give him comfort and if there's any way we can all help or be of support, please speak up. Take care of yourselves. anjuli ~~~ “I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.” - Anais Nin ~~~ 23 Jul 08, 5:31 PM angeleyes US(AR), 6 mths  I am sorry to hear that. my heart goes out to you and your Master. my thoughts and prayers are with you, Master, and your families. ~*angeleyes*~ Proudly owned by the great Master G. i was put on this earth to Serve, Please, and Obey my Master to the best of my ability. 24 Jul 08, 4:33 AM masterfiremaam US(AZ), 2 yrs  It's very thoughtful of you to think of the little details for when you pass. Sometimes, knowing can offer us a chance to do the things we wouldn't otherwise do. May you be blessed in the time you have together. Master Fire ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh Hai! Blessinz of teh Ceiling Cat be apwn yu, srsly. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 24 Jul 08, 10:23 PM 315-076-759 UK, 6 mths  I think the thought of you causing Master to grieve is giving you cause to grieve too. Grief results when a loving partnership is severed. That implies you both care for each other. In a strange way I believe you will support each other in your own way when the time comes, but for now, live fully. This all sounds a bit cold blooded perhaps but in my nursing past I have had to give similar advice, for what its worth. I really do feel for you though I can never KNOW what you're going through. Live well! Slave/Sklavos 25 Jul 08, 6:39 AM 662-935-655 US, 2 yrs  i say this as one who just recently lost a Master and who has severe disability and illness that is not YET critical, but definitely is pointing in that direction - esp. as i have a DNR order or do not revive. My heart cries for you and Yours. Many years ago when AIDS was still a pretty immediate death sentence i worked as a volunteer in a house of hospitality - like a drop-in center plus for F/folks with AIDS or HIV, their loved ones and those at high risk. That was where i got to know my first "bottom" in the lifestyle and was somewhat jealous as i thought it was only for gay men. (sigh - live and learn despite wasted time!) Anyways, W/we had a philosophy there, a slogan which came from one of our sickest clients - she said that one can be living with a terminal disease or dying from it. i passed that on to my Husband before He became my Master when He had His first heart attack and died to be revived X 3 in 1996 and He went on to live 11 years. i shared it with my bio-dad, as opposed to Master, Papa Lou, when my bio-dad got lung cancer. And i try to live by it myself. And i learned something in that center doing that volunteer work - at 2 different times when W/we, staff and clients, felt that surely one or another would be the next to die due to their advanced stage of AIDS, instead one of our "healthy volunteers" died - one of a heart attack and one of a brain tumor, the latter being the neice of the Nun who supervised the place. One never knows the future - anyone of us on here could die in a car accident or a robbery or a fire or a plane accident, or by heart attack tonight. i have learned from a Budhist leader that everyone of us is terminal - just some of us know it. this is a good way for everyone to live. W/we can all live as if we are dying or living each day and not waste a moment of precious life - making the best of it W/we can, even when we are sick and have been told the worst. And even when we are not, as far as we know. A Native American Leader, going out to fight for His people's freedom in an untenable situation and a battle He could not win said it well "This is a good day to die". m'lady, you are facing your fate with resignation, courage and compassion that is astounding - but don't make the mistake some terminal or seriously ill folks make of mourning for yourself before your gone. Instead go for the best you can make of each moment and be as comfortable as you can keep yourself, doing as much as you can while you can - as my Master did and i think He died with few regrets besides His concern for how i would fare. Maybe you can write some short journal of your life with your Master or poetry or a song or paint or sculpt something for Him/Her. there is a quote about going proudly into the dark night and also it insinuates that one goes fighting. i don't know about going fighting, but go with your head up - that you have been a good slave to your Master and have learned much in this life. i don't know if it will comfort you, but when Master had His heart attack and was revived 3 times in '96 He had a near death experience - one of profound peace and comfort, looking down upon Himself before the defib zapped Him back. When i almost died in hospital when they let my blood sugar slip into the twenties - normal is 80 - 120 or so - and i nearly died i saw a band of warrior angels waiting to meet me. And they looked like they'd fit in on the Master's side of any munch or event - alpha males and females all. If you've ever seen the program "Saving Grace" very much like her "last chance" angel Earl and that is why i've been hooked on that show since it came out. i think one of it's authors must have had an experience like mine. i've seen Master twice since He died - His mom, of a faith that teaches there is no life after death until some resurrection, has also seen Him a few times and talked to Him about my well-being once. Nothing shook her up more, i don't think. Now take what you like of that and leave the rest, but i know i no longer fear death because of it - i fear pain yes and punishment perhaps, but not death itself. And i am glad you chose to share with us. And i meant what i said about writings, songs, art - what comforts me most are my few pix of Master and so many things that He wore, esp. His Master's leather clothing He wore to events, and things He made me, using His recipes when i try to cook. (He was quite the chef and loved it so i haven't done so in some time, but it's coming back to me, etc.) Perhaps cremation and letting Him keep your ashes? My Master's faith was against that, but i have a lovely flag that draped His coffin and i have a display case and a little shrine to Him - including a commendation for His military service from the President and a certificate for a memorial tree i had planted as i am an ecclectic Neo-Pagan who was also in His fold, feeling safe in His Church as they have a heavenly mom as well as pop and it was enough like my belief. (And He needed me in His Church ministering with Him by His side) Planting that tree helped me the most - more than the funeral/military burial which was more for his mom, his kids from prior relationships and his siblings and church friends. Having this shrine to Him near means so much to me as i can not get out of my home to visit His grave - where i will eventually be buried by His side. i know this is long, forgive me - i have no wish to add to your burden, but said everything because i thought something might help. If you and your Master can accept it, consider yourself hugged. And i am clergy myself in my faith - as well as having a back ground in substance abuse counseling and working with the terminally ill as a volunteer at the AIDS place years ago. if i can help, let me know. i was with my Father when He passed over, although i couldn't get to my Master on time, having to wait for transportation and assistance i missed being there for Him by 5 minutes, which i am having trouble accepting. But i know He would chide me for feeling guilty over something i couldn't change as He used to chide me over any guilt for He said the past can't be changed - but the future can. May you be blessed by Whatever Being/s and/or Forces that are the Higher Power/s of your understanding. j/L Papa's owned always: still proudly wearing His Collar and Ring, rest in peace Beloved Master/Husband! "Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose" Janis Joplin 27 Jul 08, 12:27 AM 000-202-616 US, 5 yrs  i am sorry for the difficult journey you are facing and i will send you and Yours good thoughts. As far as your question, i personally feel our sr number is part of us, as our name is. i liked one previous suggestion of leaving it for your Master--to see your words inscribed for always. Never the less, asking His thought on the matter directly would be my choice. Communication, even as difficult as it may seem right now, would be truly beneficial for both of Yyou imho. hugs and tugs Within Order, i am free to be me--His slave for Eternity 27 Jul 08, 8:59 AM subsfaith UK, 3 yrs  662-935-655 wrote: a slogan which came from one of our sickest clients - she said that one can be living with a terminal disease or dying from it. Very well said! I live by the same, get busy living, or get busy dying. Be strong in the face of your adversity deka! My thoughts are with you right now. Faith :: smiles :: 1 Aug 08, 5:08 PM Kea_Dan CA, 3 yrs  I think Mine was asking admin about, what happens to 'her' TSP #. I thank you all for your comments and conserns. Be well ALL Kea ... ... ... Our deka, has passed on to the City of Dust, kerri is no longer in Pain. She passed quietly in Hospital, 8am Aug 01 2008. deka of Kea_Dan is now favorite a memory, of time past. Be Well My PET... BUD ... ... ... 1 Aug 08, 8:04 PM 679-891-210 US(OH), 9 mths  Wow...this is the first post that has moved me to tears.... Peace be upon you and yours... Obie's pet blossom " Hey, Pop, how do I spell this?" "Look it up in the Dictionary" "Ummm, don't I have to KNOW how to spell it already to look it up in the dictionary???" 1 Aug 08, 8:20 PM 315-076-759 UK, 6 mths  Live well Kea Dan. I sat staring at this posting a long time. My eyes are full. With all my heart To be a true slave is to be truly free Slave/Sklavos Next page