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	SD! : Web boards : Online & LDR BDSM : "For those who are...online or LDR" 1 2 For those who are...online or LDR (13) Mon 1 Sep 08, 4:39 PM 597-866-048 11 mths promise only what you can deliver..Then deliver more than you promise.. Edited Mon 22 Dec 08, 4:59 AM by 597-866-048 1 Sep 08, 5:55 PM bratitude US(AZ), 16 mths 597-866-048 wrote: For those who are...online or LDR ...Simply my Sweet Master is doing HIS job in preparing me for the life i have chosen to share with HIM. And now it is YOUR turn to pound the keys in excitement please.. So, i sat here thinking to myself... which part of your post do i start with! my Master and i have known each other for some time but it wasn't until a couple of months ago did it become what it is now. i can honestly say my Sir is the best influence in my life. He's brought me into a much better and clearer understanding of myself and my worth not just to him but in all aspects of my life. He's shown me how to be strong when i need to be and put a reign on things that were out of control. Every punishment or discipline has had its purpose and i've learned from them. It's not always been easy because i've held the control in so many aspects of my life for so long, but there is something inherent in him that drives me to serve him. i have no desire to ever change that. It makes me happier than i ever have been to do so, not to mention He is the only one who's taken the time to figure me out. I had planned to see him in about a month and a half but that will now have to wait another month so mid November we'll finally be in the same "space" so to speak The wait is maddening sometimes, but He has taught me as well, waiting and anticipation make things ohhh so much sweeter. Cryptic1's devoted bratitude "...The sweetest infection of body and mind; Sweetest injection of any kind..." Depeche Mode 2 Sep 08, 3:42 AM slaveo US(TX), 8 mths Oh my, how to answer this. My master found me when I was feeling my lowest. My previous relationship, a very devoted and loving marriage of 15 plus years had just ended in a very bad way. I felt so very lost and alone. I had only two friends in the town I lived in. I was in the process of trying to change that situation. I had been too busy taking care of my ill husband for so long that I had not had the opportunity to socialize. The only family I had within 500 miles was my daughter. I was so alone. I was questioning everything about my life. Why had this happened? Had I done something wrong? Was I loveable any more? Would I ever be happy again? Did I want to stay in that town? What if my daughter didn't want to go? Could I leave her there and move by myself? Where did I want to go? That is the point that my master entered my life. We met online on a dating site. I was only looking for friends at that point in time. That is what he became for me first, a friend. He helped me to understand why my marriage had ended the way it did. He helped me to close the door on that part of my history. He helped me to see that I still had a lot to offer to the world, and the world had a lot to offer me. He helped me to regain my faith in my spiritual beliefs. He was there for me through the worst time in my life. From and since there it simply grew and grew and continues to grow. We began to talk on the phone as well as online. We got to know each other better and better. Neither of us hid anything at all from the other. No subject was off limits. I fell in love with his voice. I craved hearing it all the time. I am so into sensual things, sounds, smells, touches, tastes and sights. And his voice was a turn on. From there it progressed to clothed pictures shared online. The absence of any type of rejection was heaven. He told me I was beautiful and made me believe it, where in the past I thought of myself as acceptably pretty at best. Eventually I was brave enough to send him pics of me in lingeree, nothing revealing, but still, not your typical photo. Again, nothing but a positive reaction. He told me I was sexy, and made me believe it. I have always thought I was far too fat for anyone to see me as sexy. But this too he gave to me. He gave me the confidence to make decisions in my life based on what I want, not what some other might think. He also reassured me that this is ok, good actually, for everyone involved. He has gradually coaxed the real me out from behind all the protective masks I hide behind. After seeing the real me he brought me to the realization that I have absolutely nothing to hide or be ashamed of. Now I am beginning to share that real me with the rest of the world as well and it is the most liberating thing I have ever experienced. And finally the most wonderful part to me of all. He introduced me to the lifestyle of BDSM for real. Not just as someone who thinks it's an interesting kink to play at when they are feeling particualrly "bad". I feel I have come home to a place where I can explore all my crazy and not so crazy intrests regarding relationship dynamics and sexual kink without feeling strange or wierd or defective for any of it. This is what my Master has given me. I can only hope and pray that I can give him something half as valuable back in return. I have made it one of my utmost goals in this life to do that. And so my journey continues to take the most delicious unexpected twists and turns. And I am simply following along wherever my heart, and most importantly my Master, lead. 2 Sep 08, 8:31 AM slaveo US(TX), 8 mths Have any of you noticed, as I just did, that all three of us posters have mentioned how much we have grown for being in our relationships? How often does that happen in the vanilla world? This life is so amazing to me! 3 Sep 08, 11:58 PM 315-076-759 UK, 7 mths slaveo wrote: Have any of you noticed, as I just did, that all three of us posters have mentioned how much we have grown for being in our relationships? How often does that happen in the vanilla world? This life is so amazing to me! If I may be so bold as to use this quote a starting point? All three have grown for being in their relationships. I too have grown in discovering areas of "me" for want of a better word, that I would not have had I not become a slave. However, there is growth in the vanilla world in one's learning to love one's partner in a way that goes beyond mere passion. The M/s relationship, whether LDR or otherwise does, I think, enter areas requiring total trust from both sides which goes well beyond what may be called for in vanilla relationships. For example, I as a slave trust Lady Mistress to not have me do something that is beyond my physical ability and conversley, Lady Mistress trusts me enough to not embarras her by appearing overly servile. At the outset we agreed I would be a slave under the "Attic Rules" established around 500BC in Greece. This meant that while we were together I was a chattel slave by definition. But when our group of artists on a Greek island dispersed the relationship had to change to LDR and it was at the airport, of all places, Lady Mistress manumitted me which meant I was free to get on with my life and she hers but I was still HER slave and wore HER anklet as a token collar. Lady Mistress wants her slave kept in good condition in the meantime so I for my part make a conscious effort to keep myself fit and busy. I did domestic work in Lady Mistress' presence and I certainly do much more around the house at home. (lol). I walk the streets wearing my ankle ring and a dog-tag with my SLRN number on a chain around my neck. Those in-the-know recognise this for what it is and most of my associates know what I am and under what regime my slavery operates. I FEEL like a slave and being a slave in society is quite interesting. Lady Mistress also is finding the idea of being a slave owner an interesting experience. There are written examples [in ancient Greece] of slaves going about their's and their owner's business on one island in the Cyclades and the actual owners being elsewhere on another island or even on the mainland. Such relationships even then had to be based on mutual trust. What if the slave ran away? But then most slaves know which side their bread is buttered on I think. We keep in touch regularly by weekly e-mail and phone. I tell her openly and honestly how things are going including when I have overdone things and tired myself out. The most difficult part of my training is to rest when told to. Lady Mistress' admonitions can be so gentle I feel ashamed in having failed in this area. Punishment enough. A re-union is planned for a day sometime in the next month when I shall once more kneel at Lady Mistress' side. To be a true slave is to be truly free Slave/Sklavos 4 Sep 08, 1:26 PM wandernlilsoul US(CA), 5 mths Slaveo.. I so enjoy your posts. 4 Sep 08, 9:21 PM 613-411-535 4 mths I have had online/LDR relationships and R/T relationships. Some of each happy and unhappy I have been in an online LDR relationship now for a little over 2 months and I know it is going to be the relationship that really works, one that will last. Right at the start I knew I wanted to offer my Domme complete and absolute obedience, no safewords, only trust. It was an instinctive judgement. Dangerous, perhaps, but I just know this is the right thing. She however is being careful. She will allow me to describe her as Domme, but nothing more. She will not allow me to call myself slave, although I feel that I could be. I know she is wise and that I must be patient and show her that I can be totally obedient without being a doormat, that I am completely open and honest and that I am responsive to her training. Who knows where it will lead? She may, I don't. I don't need to know. I just know that it will be exquisite 5 Sep 08, 2:25 AM slaveo US(TX), 8 mths wandernlilsoul wrote: Slaveo.. I so enjoy your posts. You have my Master to thank for reawakening the part of me that loves to write and for giving me the confidence to share myself with the world at large. But thank you none the less. 5 Sep 08, 1:56 PM wandernlilsoul US(CA), 5 mths My Compliments to your Master <smile> 29 Sep 08, 1:06 AM 265-997-500 US(AK), 6 mths slaveo wrote: Have any of you noticed, as I just did, that all three of us posters have mentioned how much we have grown for being in our relationships? How often does that happen in the vanilla world? This life is so amazing to me! greetings all. i have not yet experienced anything other than an online relationship. my first Master took me on a journey of self discovery. He had me journal for Him and He very much enjoyed when i would write in verse. Looking back at the blog, i can see a visual representation of the road we traveled together. i went from a brash, cheeky girl who thought she would always be in control and liked it that way, to one who gave herself to Him as fully as she could in this electronic environment. Now, i ache to find a relationship RT that could possibly be comparable. 29 Sep 08, 5:06 AM 613-411-535 4 mths 265-997-500 wrote: slaveo wrote: Have any of you noticed, as I just did, that all three of us posters have mentioned how much we have grown for being in our relationships? How often does that happen in the vanilla world? This life is so amazing to me! Oh yes! I was recently given a chance, my last chance, to ask for my release. Of course I rejected it. One could say that it is easy to walk away from an online relationship, but she gave me the decision, it was mine to take and it is taken, irrevocably. I knew at the time that I would become her creature totally. but I also knew that she would teach and guide me. She has for instance told me I must serve my community and I am now doing that. So, yes, I am growing already within the relationship and outside it. Isn't life fantastic?!! Next page