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	SD! : Web boards : Submission : "Lessons In Trust" Lessons In Trust (9) Sun 21 Sep 08, 8:22 PM meriaton US(MN), 3 yrs  The relationship that i have with my Master is very new. However, because we've discovered that we "click" in so very many different and wonderful ways, it has progressed quickly, and we are both delighted with its progression. Yesterday, Master and i went for a long walk downtown. i love going for long walks with Him, and living here, (thankfully only for another two weeks! Then we move up north), it's easy to do. We decided to head over to the Farmer's Market here, to have a look about. Between us and the market, however, is a set of steps outside the Capitol building. These stretch for about a quarter mile downhill, and are made in sections of steps, then a flat piece, then more steps, etc. Master took hold of my collar, (it's Turian style and He had temporarily solved the allergy issue by wrapping it in leather to keep the metal from touching my skin), and led me down the steps while my eyes were closed. i had to completely follow His lead and trust that He would not let me fall. i did it. Almost to the bottom, He stopped, turned me about and told me to open my eyes. When i saw how far i'd come, i was giddy enough to laugh and bounce. It was hard to believe i'd actually done it - i had given trust over to that degree. When we made it all the way to the bottom, i was ecstatic and bouncing all over the place for a few moments. He was so proud of me. His "good girl" was the proudest i've ever heard, and i'm so happy. i pleased Him - and i took a big step forward in my training. Sorry, just had to share my happiness. Have a great day! meriaton - slave of Akhenaton http://meriaton.byethost12.com/blog/blog4.php Sometimes a sense of humor is the only sense i have! 21 Sep 08, 9:48 PM Master_Al US(SC), 3 mths  LOL Congrats, that is a big step. Im happy for you. I am sure you make your Master proud. 22 Sep 08, 12:02 AM 691-475-658 UK, 5 mths  Congratulation on making the leap... obviously not literally M did something similar to me way back in the day so I know how pleased you must be with yourself. And how pleased he must be too I also found it a bit of a release too. You build yourself up into knots worrying if you can 'do this' .. and then something like that happens and it feels like a huge weight has been lifted. Well it did for me... do others find that too? Now do you find youself wondering what he'll come up with next? Take care Lorii 23 Sep 08, 11:42 AM slaveo US(TX), 7 mths  691-475-658 wrote: .... Now do you find youself wondering what he'll come up with next? .... I sure do with Master. LOL 23 Sep 08, 8:36 PM meriaton US(MN), 3 yrs  691-475-658 wrote: <snip> Well it did for me... do others find that too? Now do you find yourself wondering what he'll come up with next? Take care Lorii Oh yes, truly! i can't wait and yet at the same time, i'm very excited/nervous! LOL meriaton - slave of Akhenaton http://meriaton.byethost12.com/blog/blog4.php Sometimes a sense of humor is the only sense i have! 23 Sep 08, 10:40 PM 662-935-655 US, 2 yrs  This brought back fond memories - being legally, not totally, blind i often had to rely on my late Master to guide me, even before W/we went M/s 24/7. And once when W/we came hone to a new apartment building in total darkness, i led Him becaue i've been taught to count steps and to navigate in total darkness while blindfolded in mobility training with my red/white long cane - when i had it, now i use a short one as i also need support, but am most often, virtually always, in a wheel-chair or on a stretcher. OMG - there are people shooting guns outside my house, quick BYE! j/L Papa's owned always: still proudly wearing His Collar and Ring, rest in peace Beloved Master/Husband! "Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose" Janis Joplin 24 Sep 08, 3:08 PM meriaton US(MN), 3 yrs  662-935-655 wrote: This brought back fond memories - being legally, not totally, blind i often had to rely on my late Master to guide me, even before W/we went M/s 24/7. And once when W/we came hone to a new apartment building in total darkness, i led Him becaue i've been taught to count steps and to navigate in total darkness while blindfolded in mobility training with my red/white long cane - when i had it, now i use a short one as i also need support, but am most often, virtually always, in a wheel-chair or on a stretcher. OMG - there are people shooting guns outside my house, quick BYE! Whoa! Everything okay, hon?? meriaton - slave of Akhenaton http://meriaton.byethost12.com/blog/blog4.php Sometimes a sense of humor is the only sense i have! 26 Sep 08, 4:48 AM 555-907-356 US(FL), 4 mths  meriaton wrote: Lessons In Trust The relationship that i have with my Master is very new. However, because we've discovered that we "click" in so very many different and wonderful ways, it has progressed quickly, and we are both delighted with its progression. Yesterday, Master and i went for a long walk downtown. i love going for long walks with Him, and living here, (thankfully only for another two weeks! Then we move up north), it's easy to do. We decided to head over to the Farmer's Market here, to have a look about. Between us and the market, however, is a set of steps outside the Capitol building. These stretch for about a quarter mile downhill, and are made in sections of steps, then a flat piece, then more steps, etc. Master took hold of my collar, (it's Turian style and He had temporarily solved the allergy issue by wrapping it in leather to keep the metal from touching my skin), and led me down the steps while my eyes were closed. i had to completely follow His lead and trust that He would not let me fall. i did it. Almost to the bottom, He stopped, turned me about and told me to open my eyes. When i saw how far i'd come, i was giddy enough to laugh and bounce. It was hard to believe i'd actually done it - i had given trust over to that degree. When we made it all the way to the bottom, i was ecstatic and bouncing all over the place for a few moments. He was so proud of me. His "good girl" was the proudest i've ever heard, and i'm so happy. i pleased Him - and i took a big step forward in my training. Sorry, just had to share my happiness. Have a great day! Congratulations! Sir has never test my trust like this but he does test it in little ways a lot and I love Him and live to make Him proud. One day I hope to be able show Him I trust Him completely the way you have shown your Master that you do. Sir's sunshine *~*~*Sir's sunshine*~*~* There is freedom in chains. Edited 26 Sep 08, 4:49 AM by 555-907-356 23 Oct 08, 1:10 PM 000-120-798 US, 4 yrs  My goodness i havent been to this site in a couple of years,i miss being who i am deep inside, my Master has decided to no longer live this lifestyle , he has had a traumatic experience in his life and now he says he has totally changed and the way he feels about me has changed, how do you go from giving someone yourself totally and being in love to as he says i just want to be friends his best friend he says, now he only loves me as a friend, 9 years, and now just friends...im very broken inside, i feel very very lost! i thought this would be the perfect section to post this comment, i mean 9 years of trust, and love and now, i dunno what to even say! Edited 23 Oct 08, 1:12 PM by 000-120-798 23 Oct 08, 4:28 PM 961-082-548 US(NC), 4 mths  000-120-798 wrote: My goodness i havent been to this site in a couple of years,i miss being who i am deep inside, my Master has decided to no longer live this lifestyle , he has had a traumatic experience in his life and now he says he has totally changed and the way he feels about me has changed, how do you go from giving someone yourself totally and being in love to as he says i just want to be friends his best friend he says, now he only loves me as a friend, 9 years, and now just friends...im very broken inside, i feel very very lost! i thought this would be the perfect section to post this comment, i mean 9 years of trust, and love and now, i dunno what to even say! I am so very sorry for what you are going through and wish you all the best as you figure out your new path. Not sure how long ago this happened but perhaps theres a chance things may work out after he works through his own issues? Not unheard of. If not I sincerely hope he made practical arrangements to help with the transition. Take care, Toni "The road I walk and she crawls will be one of pain, pleasure and emotion but it will bridge our love for all eternity". -Master Skye